- Best birthday party (wasn't exactly a party, more like a celebratory dinner) ever last night. Here's how it went.
~ 3:45pm, she texted me, said that it was raining so heavily she didn't think she could come. She was the only one i was sure coming, so when i received the message, i sat there thinking how unfair life was to rain cats & dogs on that important of a day. And because she was my fallback safety, i automatically assumed that the two guys couldn't make it either.
~ 3:50pm, just what i'd expected, Baby texted, saying it was raining and he had to find a shelter on his was to the bus station. I was 99% sure noone was coming anymore, and spend 10 minutes with myself to accustom myself to the idea of having to eat spaghetti alone that night.
~ 3:55pm, the rain got harder and you could hardly see anything anymore out of the window except for a grey curtain made by raindrops and dew. By that time i took a bath, put on my hideous dress and got rid of the idea of putting on any makeups and prepared myself for the idea of One-girl-spaghetti night, i texted 2.5 "now what, it's raining so hard now" and waited for him to answer "i think i'm gonna have to wait for a while before departing". That was my best hope, that someone was gonna come, however late they could be.
~ 4:15pm, got a text message from 2.5. "Come down i'm at the Cheetah gym now". I burst out of the house, nearly cried, still wearing my hideous dress, still no makeups on my face, thinking about how amazing he could be, how unbelievable his presence was at that time and how it deeply meant for me that night. When i was halfway down the second sms came: "Quickly the fish are gonna die". I was very surprised at myself for not bursting out crying like a little girl at that moment.
I could seriously give him the biggest hug i could think of when i saw him standing across the hall, wearing that stupid cow t-shirt folding his rain coat. That moment i was very certain that he will forever be the single most amazing guy that has ever appeared in my life. Thank you, a million times thank you, not only for showing up but for letting me know there are people like you existing somewhere out there.
~ 5:06pm, Baby called, saying he'd reached the bus station. I did the possibly most horrible thing i could to the single most amazing guy in my life which was to make him ride under the rain to pick up Baby. Now that i think about it, i should've caught a cab and picked up Baby myself. Which led to the ultimately most regrettable thing i could feel. He rode his bike under the pouring rain, picked up Baby, Baby, who appeared to be as fucking handsome as always, ran with his bare feet into the lobby. I asked him where his shoes were, he said 2.5 took them. About three minutes later, 2.5 came in, he said while he parked the bike he slipped and the bike fell down and the light was broken.
Words could not explain how sorry i was when i heard about it. Words could never explain.
The rest of the evening consisted of eating, singing happy birthday, feeling a bit awkward, sitting on the rooftop under the drizzle, talking about all kinds of stuff we could think of, screaming, getting cold, cuddling in my room checking out motors, messing around with my stuff and taking silly photos. To be honest i love the spontaneous and random acts so much more than the formal dinner kind, and moreover i love them both, the two ridiculously amazing guys who emerged into my life.
- And the best part is i don't even give a fuck about the consequences. No one could steal last night away from me. Just like 2.5 said, stepping on the gossip to live.
- The even better part is the sms i got at 7am this morning, "H here, if you're sleeping then go back to sleep cause i'm on my way to your place".
- I'm living on reminiscence. But then again, haven't i always?
- 2.5 gave me a fish tank and two little fish. The story of these two (he named them Weiß and Grün after the shade on their scales, now that i gave them a really close observance i still couldn't tell which one was Weiß and which was Grün) is just as interesting as the rest, but too much information for a day isn't always good, so other time then.
- I bought them Toblerone. And i seriously hope they don't overthink about me giving them chocolate, because they have no idea how thankful i was seeing them at my house yesterday with wet hair and handsome faces :>
- I've been writing this for three days so don't question if the dates are confusing.
- I changed the link of the blog so that i could freely talk about 2.5 as much as i want to. And seriously, there's so much to talk about him i'm not gonna hide. Yesterday when Cam had a test and couldn't spend the whole afternoon with me, i had a spare 2 hours of sitting dully on my favorite spot. 2.5 was with a couple of other girls (whose faces i admit i was never happy to look at), i randomly gave him a call, thinking there was nothing to lose, if he was still with friends, no probs, i'd just sit here listening to Coldplay, which was perfectly adequate for that specific moment i might add, if not, maybe he could come & accompany me for a while. I called, still with friends, i could hear one of those voices saying "Who's calling youuuu? Is that a girl?" and mentally begged him not to tell them that it was me. After all, haven't i made enough of a fuzz? About a minute later he texted, saying "Be back in a minute baby" (since when did he get so used to calling me baby? xD~), about 10 minutes later (didn't feel like 10 minutes because i was quite moody and was in so deep with the Coldplay record): "Eh werr bist du?" (actually the right term was supposed to be "Wo bist du?" but whatever, he's cute so all is forgiven lol). I told him i was at the place i usually sat. Then he came, we talked miscellaneously about anything we could think of when he suddenly asked me: "Wanna skip class?". I paused for a moment, then said: "I will if you will". "We're skipping then". The rest was just the bestest moments which made yesterday the most amazing and memorable birthday ever, and we both didn't intentionally make it that way. He climbed in the bus with me to my house, sat on the rooftop drinking alcohol for kids eating cookies and talked about all kinds of stuff. Then the long walk to the bus station for him to catch the bus home and hands holding which was quite unlikely since it was more like pinkie holding. We really look like a couple, and the appearance fools people. Hannah said people who hated me were just a bit jealous and Cam said it was because people were not used to this, after a while everything's gonna settle down, and i'll make every effort to believe in them, however hard it might be.
- I guess I've been perfectly fine on my own for such a long time I didn't even think much about what it was like to be actually alone. Now he came and woke up every sense of socialization desires that has been living in me, making me feel a bit shameful about the time I usually spend living inside my head. Like today, when I was sitting on the rooftop reading the IELTS book listening to My Chemical Romance and because the audio quality was so excellent I actually felt like Gerald Way was screaming right into my ears I started picturing the actual band performing in front of me and for me only, he texted. And immediately I was struck down to Earth, I had slight butterflies when I saw it was him, texted him back, waited for his sms, and so forth. I was successfully evading myself from contacting to people when he came along, dragging me into the need to socialize with his sweetheart little ways. The best but worst part of this is that he has no idea how much he meant to me in such a short period of time. That's why as much as I love him, i'm also utterly scared that some day he might just see that I'm just a mediocre kid who's trying too hard to stand out.
- Lol at our attempt to video chat as a group. I seriously need a plastic surgery to even turn on my webcam and place it next to the two most beautiful guys on Earth haha
- This is probably the most sentimental yogurt cup I've ever written. I'm gonna go patiently wait for the new music video of One Direction to load while patiently wait for 2.5 to finish his nighttime eating routine to come back and say something to me in order to distract me from the fact that the music video of 1D is loading with the velocity of a sloth.
