els has evolved!

first things first!

ELENA IMPS.

she spent the whole morning here with me creating that thing. the theme was cool. i actually was gonna pick that theme for my blog but then i wanted something that's more colorful. you have NO idea how hard i was just to spend time convincing her to have one. and look what i've done!! haha :)

today was fun, but wasn't much to tell. i and my parents went to my aunt's house for lunch. it was fun helping her out. she just bought a new camera. a dsc w170. my uncle said he wanted to buy a professional one, but it was too big and my aunt didn't like big things. to be honest, i love professionals too. tonight mom's friends since junior school gathered. it was pretty fun. i overslept a bit so it was quite embarrassing. aaaaah...

ok the worst part: TOMORROW IS HW DAY!! this is exactly the revenge of hw! math and literature, that's pretty much of the plan. i'm getting nervous about my english since the teacher kind of has been expecting too much from me due to my a-little-too-good result in the first semester. there's one thing i'm sure about: i can't do that again! maybe just fine, but not gonna be so good like the first semester. especially when my studying pretty much depends on experiences, not from some science books and all. now i'm sitting next to the bunch of best english students in the class. oh great! it's gonna be more humiliating than EVER! God please save me .... 

els does not go to school. there is no way i can be like that! gosshhhhhhhhhhhhh *pissed*

my playlist today:

- keane- we might as well be strangers

- the killers- mr. brightside

- panic at the disco- 9 in the afternoon

- beck- gamma ray

- kelly clarkson- my life would suck without you

- the bravery- believe

and so on.

i suddenly felt sick of same old music genre so i started seeking something new. and that's the result. well kelly clarkson isn't so new, but i just download it so, put it on the list :)

i haven't taken a bath yet :P. peace!

right after i'm done downloading these torrents

:P

xoxo

BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK

oh yeah i'm finally back to my beloved city, whose temperature never cross 18 degree by night. WOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!

so i did a not-so-little hangout this morning. i was with Hannah and Giang. it was fun lmao. i've got these really cool things that i have to hide ALL from mom cause if she finds out, she's so gonna be mad. big time. i've got 3 nail polishes, a shirt and a super cool bracelet. we went to ciao and dammit, i ate tiramisu again XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. only this time they didn't make 'em soft enough. never mind. the shops in square wasn't all open so i didn't get to buy red belt and red converse. one more pair and my converse career is SO over! i'm sick of hiking shoes!
*and then yesterday there was one guy with those exact same converse that i fell for wandered around and around and around before me. ANNOYING! =))*

i don't wanna talk about my 10 hell days there. yes there were fun times when people gather around and eat and talk and make noise and blah blah, but most of the time was so pathetic that i just felt so sorry for my holiday. i kept thinking about the routine for britney's circus. even my ipod was boring this time! i played jack johnson's sleep through the static all the time. he is such a genius. maybe after metal, acounstic will be my next favorite.
i ate like a pig there. that's the thing i'm certainly sure about. i gained 1 pound. no comment here. great! it's like every bad things just gathered on my body right now. and the eating isn't over yet. oh my goshhhhh ...
the money i collected this year was PATHETIC! oh god. one shopping and all was completely gone. how fast did i spend those. hah, and i still couldn't save any for the calculator. my urgent-shopping list still needs to be leghthened. hah.

we talked about everything in the world: my old pals, we actually SAW an old friend passing when we were sitting in the cafeteria having lunch. it was just *wow*.
*reminds me of the fact that i haven't had a lovebug and still hoping that Edward Cullen will appear in my room someway*
basically they've changed. fortunately those two i was with today didn't change much since i last saw 'em. good thing. i'm sick of changes.
the original plan was to go watch twilight the third time, but after hannah confirmed that 'no more twilight', we switched to the shopping plan. i wouldn't have bought this much if there were some not-so-lame movies showing.

ok ok. shopping list. i haven't had the money i'd expected so basically i'm broke. and look at this! i'm so guilty!

- thesaurus
oh dammit! i read the thing in 5 minutes and now i desperately want it in my pocket! mom'll take care of this. all for study!
- red belt
for my shirt. this shirt can't be worn without a belt, and the only color i've got in my wardrobe are green and black.
- GOSSIP GIRL *xoxo*/princess diaries
i saw it in PNC bookstore. it seems like it was based on the series. this or some pricess diaries books. or maybe i don't need them at all. i'm writing myself princess diaries :). but i still need something to get my mind outta those midnight sun thing. oh my gosh Edward's thoughts were *speechless*
- red converse
aah certain need. this is obvious. this and the thesaurus right there is mom's part. i save it exclusively for you mommy :).

and another buck will be gone in a *snap*. i am such an asshole!

YET WILL HAS POSTED JESSE MCCARTNEY'S IT'S OVER OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO!! can't tell how much i *heart* him right now :)

ONE

officially one day before digging myself into the mud lake of boredom. 

due to the schedule, i was supposed to go cut my hair, buy some products, some FOOD (m&m and skittles), wash all the clothes i wanna bring but still in the laundry bag right now. but i'm sitting here, listening to britney's circus and doing absolutely NOTHING. mom's away for some convention, leave the house for some lazy psycho :>

last night gramps just got here for a new year's eve dinner. although new year's eve is still far away but since we're celebrating new year at the-sucking-place, this is pushed earlier. after dinner, i lied in my room, reading twilight the 10th (or more) time. dammit Edward, you're dead with me :(( i'm such a psycho and blindfold for crazily falling in love with a fictional character. 

row row row your boat, up and down the stream. if you see an alligator, don't forget to scream :)

seriously gotta go. if i sit here any more minute, mom'll kill me :>

my hairstyle looks exactly like there's something dead on my head. dammit!!!

i downloaded a bunch of music: fall out boy, jack johnson, pussycat dolls, ryan cabrera, ... i started with ryan. and i was a little disappointed. his music lost the acoustic style in elm st. it's modern. and i don't have to say how much i don't like modern pop. it's ordinary and i probably mistake him with some other artists some day. 

i'm gonna take a backpack and my new bag. there are lots of stuff that i'm gonna bring. in case i need when i'm too bored. which IS gonna happen.

oh, and i've found another perfect guy for the role Edward Cullen. no offence ok robert, you're still my best Edward :). introducing KYLE PATRICK

i watched the click 5 performed yesterday on channel v and i thought what if kyle played Edward? i think he's got what it takes :). wow, it's been so long since i realized how cute you are kyle :>

or maybe he's so tamed. he doesn't look dangerous. about this part robert has done an amazing job :). but i still like the vision he plays Edward Cullen beside kristen stewart

cam must be at the airport right now. have fun in the capital. i "can't" wait until my plane lands on the place. dammit!

peace! too bored can't stalk

this is the third time i've edited this post today. it's just the whole leaving town thing kinda makes me nervous. this noon i thought about how to actually print eclipse by my own to have something to read in case i can't bring the laptop around. and i tried to imagine how boring it can be, how much i need to prepare. i've brought a backpack full of books. i think i'm gonna go print some pages so that i can read something at the airport tomorrow :).

i bought some facial products. and i've figured out a way to bring my victoria's secret pack with me. HAHA :)

peace. i'll have to leave home at 4 tomorrow. oh my gosh ...

maybe i'll find Edward there

oh you wish

it's just a little support, at least now i have my own role model :)

sing along with me the last time

row row row your boat, up and down the stream. if you see an alligator, don't forget to scream :)

WHY GOD WHY

yup! no tutor today

but instead, i couldn't find my cellphone charger. i've been looking for it the whole morning. actually not whole. 

i finally had the time to work on my portfolios this morning. ely stopped by and help me out with the nails and the arrangements. she forgot to bring the make-up pack so we did the shoot immaturely. how sad ... and i lost my leggings so we had to take jeans instead. oh god ... the shoot will definitely be done again. and this 'the hunchback of notre dame' too. 

obviously and basically, i changed my theme. after one hour wrestling with all of my favorite themes on blogskins, i finally found mine. simple, again. but this time more colorful. it's tet, hello! now i have to go find the mp3 player creator site. ok i found it :).

let's think of the playlist:

. jack johnson- if i had eyes

. fall out boy- i'm like a lawyer

. gavin degraw- medicate the kids

. pink- so what. haha freakshow!

. britney- if u seek amy :)

. joss stone- music

. christina- keeps gettin' better

i was thinking of putting quando by michael buble. buble's vocal was *speechless* but nelly's vocal ruined it all! no offence ...

my page looks like a mess! urgh i have to go edit it. and finish the fic name 'stupid fic'. i still haven't figured out the proper name for that crazy story. 

i'm so bored. i need new music and my torrent is getting on my last nerve. 

why ?

safari just came not responding 5 minutes ago. 

why ?

if i wasn't so excited about the new theme, i would just swish your heads!

i skipped breakfast this morning for some stupid tv shows. are you smarter than a fifth grader. can't wait til wednesday ... the jam was so sweet, i couldn't have 2 loaves of bread just cause of it. 

starve sweet starve. ambiguously.

WHY HAVEN'T I STARTED READING ECLIPSE YET? I'LL NEVER REACH BREAKING DAWN WITHOUT DONE READING ECLIPSE

Edward save me ...

you know what i completely lost my apetite with photoshop. the last time i touched it was 2 hours ago, to define the color code, to paint my cbox. i did it last time with the last theme

i'm becoming talkative aren't i?

peace!

saturday morning

some part of me just confirmed that today is not gonna be an exciting day.

i have this MATH tutoring at 6. cam didn't bring me the accessories of my bag though i reminded her every single time. she's such an annoying person. and the nail polish. i will definitely paint my nails black. to protest.

i'm in the save-up process. and that obviously means 'going nowhere'. ambiguously.

i desperately need a thesaurus. 

i'm having this inspiration back, so i think i'm gonna go write the story as much as possible. wow, sounds like a duty, no more fun.

last night i watched moulin rough. to be honest, it wasn't as good as i'd imagined. except for the fact that christian was cute, nicole kidman was marvelous, the movie plot was kind of boring. besides, i hate the name satine. it reminds me of some kind of negative or non serious-minded character. just love the song lady marmalade :).

peace. chores await :)

p/s: michael :)

told ya the pink hairstyle looks creepy. can't understand you castros :)

evening update: the tutor turned out to be not so bad today. we (means i and huy, what? you think cam was really gonna show up?) showed up and the teacher was nowhere to be found. we KIND OF wanted to sneak out and get home but then we got caught. aaah awkward ... 

we talked a lot today. about future work, about dream house, dream job, all that. it was funny how i could have my full attention into the conversation and kept thinking about my story at the same time. this morning i dug the old laptop, listened to some of my recordings and realized how much my voice has grown. i read the old fic bout tokio hotel i'd left a year ago and some lines just flashed in my head. so i started writing that fic the whole noon. just too bad i wanna share it with hannah and my crazy yahoo messenger just kept lagging and lagging :(. i think i'm gonna upload it on mediafire and send her the link. safe and sound!

while sitting in my room hanging out with that fic, suddenly caught wireless connection :). i just caught it in about 15 minutes. i don't know if it was something to be excited about as i could just walk 10 steps to the plugged computer. 

tet's coming. i think i'm gonna refresh my blog though swear to god i'm desperately in love with this appearance. but refreshing is just a good thing to do! something colorful, maybe.

i'm digging in blogskins to find some new shirt for my journal. at least i'll have to change its shirt BEFORE pushing myself into a so called vacation.

too much talking. i'm becoming borin! peace!

even though mine won't seem to be happy, but this is crucial

HAPPY HOLIDAY GUYS!! VACATION ROCKS!!

claustrophopbic

ok you've pushed me to the limit. i'm left no choice. now the only way to get access here is by safari. because safari has this weapon name 'private browsing'. mozilla and opera don't. i think i'm gonna block every single way to get access to my online journal. from my computer.

that's the only way to prevent her from reading my journal, THEN blame me on what i wrote in it. i don't you if you agree with me or not but it's such a bad thing to do.

i just cleared all the blogger databases in opera and firefox. there's is no way she can get access here. unless i forget to turn off the page before leaving the computer. this is the pain of using shared computer. just wait until i have my own laptop. then i'll set password and all that. i won't be doing anything forbidden, i just need my privacy. seems so hard for an overcurious person like her.

PERV!

on second thought, maybe i won't go to the concert tonight. and i won't go with her either. i'll be home, finishing my story, or at least finding inspiration for it. i'm saving up for eclipse and breaking dawn. i think i'm gonna go print them by myself. can't imagine a life without them. especially a life with all those stalkers around! you have no idea ...

since my holiday is about to turn into a complete nightmare, i'm in a crisis. she cut all of my sources, grounded me. i think i'm having claustrophobia and depression. if that's what she wanna get, just be what she wants. woohoo!!!