Extra-crazy

ANNOYING!!
First of all, I'm about to go to school to have extra class on Chemistry. According to some guys, we still have to do homework and learn lessons. Does noone remind her this is an EXTRA class ? I'm so tired of this.
And Mom is driving me nuts. Don't ask.
I have two new musketeers on my face. It's AWFUL!!! Feeling like the whole world is looking at my zits.
This morning, we had tests in almost all of the periods. There are 4 periods and we had 3 tests. One is for checking the test we did last week that she called 'surprise full-term test'. That woman is crazy and has the special ability to bore people unlimitedly. About that, all the teachers do. Home come.
My class officially has 37 students. Shark (who I don't usually have good reviews on and barely talk with) is about to go abroad. Vi seems to be really happy cause she hates the girl a lot. I feel normal. I wonder when I go, will people act soulless like that?
I WANNA GO MORE THAN EVER!!! (yes here it goes) I'm fed up with this class and these people and these teachers and the stupid education program that leads us to nowhere.
Oh come on .......

(And I still can't believe that this morning I just had an essay about 'why do I live in this world')

Vi didn't seem to be nice this morning. She actually laughed at my face when I showed her my essay. Yes, for somehow, I'm so sensitive with that. And now, recalling it, I'm starting to feel annoyed. Not so good!
4 minutes to go. Who cares ?

I watched 'Read It And Weep' yesterday. The third time. I think the reason why I like that movie so much is because the Jamie character is exactly like me. 'If I don't get to write, I'm gonna die!'. Yeah yeah yeah, I've got just a couple of hundreds pages of diary in the computer one, more than a hundred in computer two, Y!360 (not so real, pass) and blogspot. I wonder what will the world be like if everyone reads my blogspot. 'A journal with a lack of nice words'.

I think I'm gonna post some parts of my diary here.
;;)
And then print it just for myself.
OK gotta go. This is the march through hell called HIGH SCHOOL.

Rulebreaker. David Cook.

OK I broke the rule. So what? I'm still a rock star =)).
I downloaded David Cook's creation yesterday, and Britney's greatest hits. But wait. I downloaded Britney's because I need to find a song for my upcoming event. Doesn't sound fin right? Whatever.
The only reason I wanna live right now is David Cook's creation. OMG I wish it was a concept album, that's the only missing part of the album. The songs are amazing (cause half of them were composed by ESPEN LIND), but I can't find the combination, the bond. Turn it into a concept album will be perfect. Hope he'll do it next time. The album already sold 250,000 copies, the same as Archie's. Nice start. Keep rocking Cookie, best wishes for you.

(Curse the one who made this hairstyle to my Cookie. The hairstyle in top 9 was per-fect)

01. Declaration 3:13
02. Heroes 3:27
03. Light On 3:49
04. Come Back To Me 4:08
05. Life On The Moon 3:38
06. Bar-Ba-Sol 4:29
07. Mr. Sensitive 3:38
08. Lie 3:49
09. I Did It For You 3:49
10. Avalanche 4:32
11. Permanent 2:56
12. A Daily Anthem 4:20
13. Kiss On The Neck (Hidden Track) 3:22
14. The Time Of My Life (Bonus Track) 3:36

Recommended tracks: another album with no recommended track. My favorite right now are Bar-Ba-Sol and Mr. Sensitive. But this is temporary.

Download here.

I went to yoga class today. Nothing was going on except for the fact that I actually stept my foot into the WC there and what I'd seen is going to haunt me for good. After that, we (Mom and I) did a little research about iPod. We found a really nice place and actually booked it. I swear to God I'll never borrow anyone's iPod from now on. I've caused enough trouble this year.
Wait. The best part of stepping into those stores is to WATCH and TOUCH the one and only amazing, groundbreaking, rocking MACPC and MACBOOK.
Oh my God I almost fainted.

Jill criticized me (or was it Camelia? I don't know and sick of this game). I don't wanna give a damn anymore.

I practiced "What I've Been Looking For" with the 'idol'. It went pretty well.

After having a detailed plan of putting the biggest prank on 'the stupid', Camelia playing the 'charming' talked to her tonight. According to her, the stupid was so ... stupid and insane. She claimed that the plan was ruined, but not yet. We cannot quit yet. Especially when I'm in a mood of hating her so much. We have to do much more. MORE!!! And we have to be cooperative in every second. But above all, the plan is a secret. At this part, I don't think I myself have done a good job. Shame! I have to beat this girl! Mark my words.

It's 11 o'clock and I'm not into any rush of going to bed. Don't you just loveeee weekend ...


Need-to-(re)watch-movies:
1. Transformer
2. Disturbia
3. Surf's up
4. Eagle Eye
Isn't it weird when all the movies above have Shia :) ?

That's it. I have to go to bed anyway. Peace out.

Suicide II

Suicide I.

I actually understood Physics today.
And it was FREEZING cold this morning.
It's like faith =)).

Since I'm about to suicide, when I'm so close to death, Jill, I'll forgive you =)).

I MADE IT THROUGH ANOTHER MATH PERIOD!!! That was exciting news cause my heart beat like crazy in her periods. I have like almost 5 of her periods in Thursday. Including recess.

OK peace. Gotta buy some knives and sleeping pills. Prepare for my DEATH!

AWFUL!

I'm telling you this is the second time I've stepped on the road and wish for a hit from a van. I don't know what happened to me today, but what I'd got was so AWFUL!
I woke up at 4:30AM to study Biology cause I got a test today. I'd actually studied (or I thought I had). I went to school and had to study Chemistry in case she recited. During the Biology test, I COULDN'T REMEMBER ANYTHING I'D LEARNED!!! ANYTHING!!! I almost gave back the white paper. I cried later then cause I SWEAR TO GOD I HAD STUDIED FOR IT, not that I was lazy or something. I didn't get good marks last time, now this.
Yes and 3 in Physics. Don't ask.

The suicide thought crossed my mind like a thousand times today. There was so much happened today that made me wanna give up on everything. Everytime bad things happen to me, I just try to think that it's just a small problem and I'll laugh at it when I'm 30 or something, but there were so much happened to me in the past few months and it really shocked and obsessed me a lot. Yeah it sounds bad when millions of people want the things I've got and I just wanna give up life so easily but it's been a shock to me and I'm amazed at myself about how conscious I've been through all those things. Again, I did it on my own. I can't find any friend that is trusty enough for me to feel comfortable to talk with.
Terrible things happen everyday, every minute, but please, stop causing me problems. Haven't I had enough? Nobody has ever been through such a hard time starting high school like me.
Sometimes I just feel like I'm a dump bag. God can throw me into the dirtiest corners of life and it can still get worse.
Suicide suicide suicide is the only word in my head right now. Suddenly I'm not so obsessed about all those undownloaded albums. I'm just worried about tomorrow. Will I make it through tomorrow?

I can't find my reason of life anymore. How bad can this be ? Just simply wake up, think of yesterday and concern.
The things I'd done 'yesterday' was so awful that I can't stop thinking of it EVERY morning.
What will Mom think if she sees my Biology marks?
It's like being buried alive. I mean it. Slow death.

Doomsday

2 free days celebrating Teacher's day. No Maths, no Physics, no headteacher.
And no Shia. Great. I've been watching HBO all the time to just catch some Shia, but it seems hopeless. Right at the time when I'm about to go crazy for him.
Oh, and this. I told mom I'm going out for some movies today. And this morning, she totally ruined my plan. GREAT!!!! It's been like a decade since I last stept my foot on the movie theater.
Another boring boring day. I'm feeling like I'm wasting too much time on lying at home, watching same old movies, eating canned popcorn and blathering 'bout sucking life. I'm feeling like a cavewoman. Oooooooooooooooh ..................
Ely's got new ideas for her newest video: Lucky. Yeah right. I'm not doing this. I'm so tired of it. Maybe I'll just be a studio secretary. So full of it.
I can't believe that David Cook actually released his new album and I haven't downloaded it yet. Due to my Dad's rule 'No download under any condition in one month since the day the computer was fixed', I'm totally ruined. IT'S DAVID COOK FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!!
And I wanna watch Gossip Girl so much that I can kill myself.

One more exciting thing: I haven't had any breakfast so later I'm gonna buy some potato chips and a diet coke. As usual.

I mean, how bad can it get. I only have 30 Math excercises and 15 Physics ones to do.
Such a DOOMSDAY!!!

Shia

This is Shia Labeouf. My new idol. I swear to God I used to hate this guy so much.
Then I watched half of Disturbia. Still no feelings at all.
One day I sat down and watch the entire movie. And from then on, I seriously like him =)).
I found out that he played the psycho twin in 'Tru Confession' 6 years ago. Goddamn it Disney, he's become so flawless. I find him so hot. Unbelievable. The same happened to Ryan Cabrera. Oh God I must say he was the only pretty boy that I met and hated. Weird.

SCHOOL SUCKS!!! As usual. I've hidden like 4 of my psycho tests. Let's see: Biography- 5 (6 minus 1 for copying friend's paper), Maths- 6,5, Social Study- 9 and 5 (it's not easy to reach 9, and it's not easy either to reach 5 .-.), Geography- 6 (what the heck? I was supposed to reach 7. 6 & 7 are different), Chemistry- 6 (two wrong questionnaires, totally wrong in other calculations).
That's my learning situation so far. I haven't got ANY 'not bad' marks since ending October. Except for English. If I can't get high marks in English, 100 percent that I'll quit school.

The computer's fixed and I can't download in a month. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? November's like the party of albums. And moreover, DAVID COOK'S ALBUM HAS LEAKED!!! I'm looking at it but I can't touch it! Beyonce's 'I Am', Taylor Swift's 'Fearless', X-Tina's 'Decade of hits', ...
Kill me already!

Oh and one more thing: I lost my friend's iPod, so basically I'll have to buy her a new one. I only have 200k left in my purse and I don't know how to tell my parents about this. I'll be banned from camera, iPod and computer for like, permanent. But weird enough, I left it under my table, there was no night class at that day or the following day, noone in the class responded the asking, I couldn't find it anywhere.
OK maybe I was right. God hates lazy people.

I'm black-nailed :D. Cool right?
Peace out. I think it's time for tutoring .-.