Yogurt cup #100: it ends tonight

• It's true what they say, when one door closes, two doors open. Today precisely marks the end of a lot of things that matter to me in the summer, and I thought I'd feel upset and stuff, but actually right now, when I'm putting on another facial mask to prove to the world that I do indeed take care of myself sometimes, it doesn't feel much heavy.
• He leaves today. I guess I haven't talked about what happened after the last post. I tried writing it down but given the context that this is the 100th yogurt cup it just doesn't feel right to write such angry or depressed words. I've gotten to the point when I'm just so scared to have to think bad about anybody. Carrying around negative feelings towards a person is no easy task, because every now and then when your mind wanders back to a memory about that person, you have to try to shut it down or switch to something else. So I've found a way to still think good things about him, we're never gonna meet again, might as well just keep nice memories about each other. Summer's always been an emotional time for me already, a couple of nice thoughts won't hurt anyone.
• I pm-ed him on Facebook the other day, asking him when he'd leave. It's the worst told lie ever because goodness do I memorize it. I thought he wouldn't answer given the situation that I texted him, with pretty heavy words, that I didn't want anything to do with him anymore, and that although we're friends with benefits there should be a limitation to all of this. But he did answer, pretty nicely, so I just wished him well and that was it. I think in about a year or so whenI look back at this I'm just gonna blame myself for being too naive and for acting too much like an annoying teenager, but I'm never gonna stop blaming myself anyways, at least this time I can just pride myself on taking actions that bear slight resemblance to what adults normally do.
• Today was also the exam date of my Landeskunde class. The class was the only thing that kept me productive the entire summer, making me feel like I'm finally doing something beneficial, not just lying around thinking about boys. Although I don't think I did very well on the test, I think I'll pass. It's surprising how the thought of not getting to go to school 3 days a week kind of upsets me. The class was really fun, it felt almost like we're entering a TV show rather than a class studying about Swiss geography, educational system and economy. Oh well, I have about 3 or 4 weeks before school starts again, time to squeeze in another trip. If my mom ever allows me to go anywhere.
• I bought a silver ring the other day, just to kind of mark the end to all of this. I haven't bought any true piece of jewelry in such a long time, and the idea of buying jewelry as memory keeper is new to me, so I really wanted to try it out. But I'll have to refrain myself from buying too many rings and lose the meaning of it in the first place.
• Babbling much, but in the end I just wanna say, summer's really over. Everything that's happened feels like a whirlwind, it's so surreal to the point where I can't believe all of it could cram in such few sunny days. This might be the last "obligated" summer that I have before I finish school, so, might just spend the next couple of days well enough to start off a fresh year next year.