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This blog is slowly turning into a what-ever-I-am-going-to-photograph-in-my-room blog. And something's wrong with the internet connection, I can't view anyone's blogs, including mine, and can't log on to facebook.
Actually, not being able to log on to facebook has its advantage. I finally touched the Psychology book today. I feel like my attitude towards education is not healthy. Ever since I got into college, I felt like an ape, only studied when the deadline's hours away. As creepy as it might sound, I'm starting to miss the high school disciplines. Now that I'm free to do whatever the hell I want to do, I've realized that I will only study if I suddenly fear that I might fail, not out of any interests towards the subject that's required. But I like German, I'm gonna give it a serious view.
I wanna get this over with so that I don't have to step to school for a while. I can't put myself up with the idea of seeing him. I've been pretty fine for the past three days at home, although, I admit, it wasn't quite health-conscious of me to eat ice-cream like a nuthead, but it's way better than actually having to deal with the mini-universe that's revolving around him.
I know I've said I'm tired before, but right now, I've come to the state of being too mentally exhausted to think straight. I admit more than once have I run away from home doing God-knows-what to distract myself from the fact that I' a weakling. I've told myself, in that amount of time too, this is gonna take time, and thank God the arrival of Penny next week is the perfect excuse not to lock myself up in my room thinking about crap. The outcome is going to be numerous series of what-else-haven't-I-photographed-in-my-room-again posted up here and I'm gonna have to revert some back to the draft section because, bitterly admitted, I'm still working on this camera and my photos aren't the best to look at.
I'm gonna finish the books I've left behind, every one of them. Seems like a promising plan.
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