Yoghurt cup #48

• Over a month since my last yogurt cup. No idea why, in the depths of this ultimate sleepiness i'm still writing this yogurt cup. Bad timing.
• The foundation of a relationship needs time, the quicker it goes the sooner it's deemed to collapse. And i need him so. much. more than he needs me.
• Lol i'm not talking about a relationship, how come the idea of actually committing to someone scares me. I was, and still am, more than ever, afraid that they would only be fascinated by the slight differences that i prose in communicative life. Deep down inside, as i'm sitting in my closed and isolated room every night, i realize i'm just mediocre, probable owner of a worse personality than half of the people in this third world country. 
• Mediocre, that's the most terrifying word in the dictionary that i've ever looked up for.
• The fact that there aren't much homework has resulted in regrets of the wasted time i've spent thinking nonsense. Sometimes i wonder if anyone thinks the way i do, about unrealistic stuff, then gets obsessed with them.
• I. Have. No. Life.
• The plan for this afternoon is to sleep for 3241 hours then go to the gym to observe the unnecessary enthusiasm of the rich people. Then spend the entire evening thinking about how i've messed up in the last German test, something that i should've condemned myself days ago. Then read Catcher In The Rye and pretend like i've done something extremely useful.
• But no, i'm serious, i'm really sleepy right now. I'm gonna go to sleep now, if i wake up later and feel like continuing this yogurt cup, i will. Or else, these are my updates for the past month. A very eventful month indeed.
• Nope i got up and wanted to write some more but nothing came out. So, there you go.
• One more thing, as i'm watching Tranny from the R:A DVD, i can't express how much admiration and appreciation i have for this band. Thank God i own the frigging DVD. Best purchase by miles, no, lightyears that i've made this year!