Utopia

So i officially said goodbye to Ron today. He gave me a hug. It was strange when somebody gives me a hug. I don't usually receive hugs, i only give them. That's really good to know what it's like being given something you only give away.

We watched the water puppet today and a there was a situation and i, again, overreacted. When will i be able to get rid of that attitude! It's becoming an attitude now. The attitude of exxagerating and overreacting.
There's so much of me that needs fixing!

Ron gave me The Envoy today. Some poems are really inspiring and i'm thinking of changing my blog name after a line in a poem in there.
I could write one (: I'll try.
And i'll read the book tomorrow. I've been promising myself that for 3 days and i haven't touched the book since then. Shame!

I'm listening to Brian Littrell's song Gone Without Goodbye. There's this strange feeling that only this song gives me. I remember trying to learn the lyrics in the twilight.

There are some people whose loss in life are uncountable. The tunes helps me feel the lost that i've never experienced, and i hope never will.
Speaking of, i've been thinking about a cruel fact that i've created: i lost all of mom's presents she gave me when she returned from the States. I lost my iPod in the ladies' room, my Barbie doll was taken by my art teacher, i forgot my watch at the girls' chamber.
Maybe i'm not worth dedicating.

Still i enjoy blogging more.