Suicide

Another week passed by and I didn't get a chance to update the miserable situation of me.
Firstly, school sucks, and my marks are terrible. My Literature test was horrible, I got 3 in Physics, 6 in Biology for haven't learnt the lessons, other 6s in Geography and Math, or worse.
I HATE SCHOOL!!!
I've never been more miserable in my WHOLE life. Why does it have to be this way? And how's Mom gonna be like when she looks at my report at the end of the semester?
I stopped talking to Jill for a week and it felt comfortable. In the mountain of criticize-mean messages she sent me, she said that I didn't respect her, and that made me feel guilty for a pretty long time. Then I thought about that again, she had NEVER respected me. She lost my chocolate and yelled at my face like I was the one to blame for giving her chocolate, she told me that I'd been blaming her so much for little things when actually I hadn't, and mostly I didn't feel comfortable talking to her, it's like giving lectures to another kid that is ready to yell at me anytime I try to describe something.
I'M SICK OF YOU JILL. YOU'D BETTER THINK ABOUT HOW YOUR ATTITUDE MAKES ME AND CAMÉLIA DON'T WANNA TALK TO YOU ANYMORE.
And after that, she tried to prove that I was pathetic without her. I'm pathetic having you around. I'm having fun with other kids in class. I can't believe that I'm saying this, but switching seats was a smart decision. I don't actually in a mood of needing to share my thoughts with anyone and the girl who seats next to me started to make feel annoyed, so just fine that I got rid of Jill.
Monitor for some way got the highest mark in English. GODAMM IT I DID THAT TEST MY BEST AND GOT 7, SO HOW THE HECK COULD YOU GET 8,5????
It turned out she got 5,5. And for some reasons, the teacher gave her 8,5.
IS THERE ANYTHING CALLED FAIR IN THIS WORLD???
IS THERE ANYTHING CALLED FAIR IN MY LIFE???
Guess NOT.

I'm full of stress and homework. Mid-term tests are coming up, and if I can't get nice marks in the tests, I'm SO gonna kill myself.
The worst part is I promised my Mom that I'll study hard, but I only started studying hard after tests.

This is so embarrassing.

How come all the bad things just happened to me this week.
Sorry for being such a good girl.

All my music sources are all closed. My James Blunt album just blew off.
CAN MY LIFE GET ANY WORSE? WHY CAN'T IT BE LIKE 9th GRADE?