7.16.2016

noodlebox #2: how haven't i made it to #2 yet???



  • Summer's halfway done, and I've already gotten myself into yet another mess with guys. Not that it's any surprise to all of you, because I always get stuck in such things, in one way or another.
  • So, I'm gonna list the pros and cons, but mostly cons, just to try to control myself for once in my life. Me not having an emotional breakdown and inaudibly crying in my bed any night is already an improvement than other summers. So here goes:
1. He has a girlfriend. And it looks like they're not gonna break up any time soon. If ever they do, he's too nice a guy to even talk about it with anybody else. But he's that type, the type who would not break up with the girl no matter what happens. He plays by the rules, and respects it, and is also a kid.

2. Remember why you broke up with your ex? Nicer guys with larger dicks appeared in your life, and you needed to make room for the dick. Your ex was also a kid, like this one that you're having a crush on. You can't talk to him about stuff that's happening in your life, and thank goodness there's still something relevant for you to talk about now, but sooner or later, it's gonna turn into this soggy mess of him not helping you understand yourself, and you're drained from energy to even bother listening to his stories.

3. You haven't gotten in deep. It's still safe to back down. I know it's not easy, it's never easy when you accidentally like someone who's forbidden, but still, you still have a chance to back down in one piece.

4. He's probably only interested in you cause you're a cool teacher, not a cool person with head-turning stories. Without your teacher status, you don't mean a single thing. Don't get your hopes up, he's a kid, and you can do better than that.


  • So, guidelines: only talk to him, but refrain from talking to him as much as possible; try not to get your hopes up every time he does something cute; find another one.
  • Short words for myself after liking this kid. You can do better, keep that in mind Sam.