- 11:40pm. Sleepy night, again. I've had intentions to write here for a couple days now, just to know how it would feel like to grasp a breeze of what my mind used to be.
- I feel like I'm changing everyday I don't know why. I give myself more rights to do indulgent stuff, which I affirm that I deserve after a lifetime of working nonstop.
- And I have been working a lot lately. First time to know how it feels like not to have time to nurture your darling personality anymore. I've cut back my tumblr time, and my blogging time, I barely log on to blogspot anymore, which used to be something I do every three hours of a day.
- Not having time for myself led to not having time to think about what is messed up with my life. Actually, as busy as you might be, thoughts will find their way to creep into the creeks of your mind, waiting for the right time to burst out.
- A well crammed bus with thoughts merely around how to get out of the bus alive, and how to sit without having any skin contact with the person aside, or how to get back at a mean person who stares shamelessly, or sleeps with such creative and unbearable postures. Thank God it's crammed, and thank God all I had to worry about in the bus was how to win the air conditioner with the guy next to me who spent the entire hour on the bus lecturing his child at home.
- So that I don't have time to think.
- Watched whatever's-left-of-a-used-to-be-beautiful-sunset today. And fucking sadly, he found my spot.
- I don't mean harm, but we can't get along no matter what. Probably because I look at people in life different than mom, or because I'm not old and wise way before my age to be attracted by such characters that are endearing and stable. Fuck endear, fuck stability, every time I look at their marriage, it creeps me out with the weirdest feeling.
- Good to know that I can still speak English. Thought German has found its way to invade my linguistic side of brain.
- As you change, you realize you believe in less people, and the best people will always leave.
- This is why I don't wanna think about the future. For one moment there, I had thoughts about 5 years from now, will I still be friends with him?
- He seems to be the most important thing in my life right now, and I spend an apparently big amount of time of the day just to talk to him. Regardless, he's irreplaceable, and I'm not opted for a backup solution if he has sudden interest in that fucking tits-face walking round the school.
Updates from me. Nothing new, just me being depressive, as usual. Listen to John Mayer everyone!
And I honestly still don't understand how this blog's page view still goes up in a mysterious way.
