aaargh can't sleep

I can't sleep. What could be a better title for this post? I was thinking about doing more writing for the story but as soon as i turned on the laptop i felt sleepy again ._. Really funny.
My hand skin looks awful under the light of the laptop. It looks like i'm 40 years old! With orange nail polish!
So, i was thinking about maybe getting some lipstick as the summer has come, i've been spending 20 hours in my 100-square-feet room doing practically nothing and ... i don't know. Everyone loves a good lipstick. Maybe MAC, i checked out their website today and there were about 200 colors for one brand of lipstick, and i have no experience whatsoever in buying things online so, maybe i'll just crash the store once i finish the tests and buy myself one of those.
Another idea just popped into my head today. You know the hair-dyeing plan i've been talking soooooooo much about, well, i was thinking maybe after dyeing my hair brunette, i'll dye my hair end red. Like Jared Leto in "From Yesterday". Don't freaking know where i got that thought though. But maybe i'll do it, by myself. And maybe i'll get myself a black maxi dress for the summer beach vacation as mom is planning on having one.
More crazy ideas? Well, let's see ... Errr i'm having a plan on redecorating my room, that's one. I'll have to go print some photos, pin them on the side of my closet, frame some of them and place them on my bed, expand the collage at the back of my door since i want it bigger and fresher.Maybe i'll seriously buy the Christmas lights this time haha, mom's gonna pull them off in 2 seconds but at least i've got 2 seconds of glory.
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Still have a crazy kind-of-nonrealistic thought that i've been thinking for a couple of days. I'm bursting with ideas, if you haven't noticed.

Okay, i'll try and get some sleep now.

15 days

Yeah and i feel like shit. The preparing isn't going anywhere, the staying-at-home-locking-myself-up-in-my-100-square-feet room is the most depressing and boring part. But mostly, i just feel like i'm wasting my time. I've been taking up lots of English work lately, most of it just to make myself feel useful, thinking well hey, i'm studying something. Haha such a pitiful lie.
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somewhat summer

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I am so freaking tired with this. Why can't it be over with??

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Gooood morning world! I'm feeling a bit fresh (and a bit lazy since i haven't been anywhere close to my Lit schedule yet), they're gonna have some make-ups delivered at my house today. Looking forward to that.
The weather's been quite pleasing lately actually. It's been raining a lot so the temperature's not very hot. It's not sunny either, makes me feel a bit like an idiot since i just bought myself a big tube of sunblocking whitening cream. And, i kind of promised myself not to watch Christmas movies until Christmas cause that's when the nostalgia begins, but i couldn't stand the feeling of waiting so i downloaded All I Want For Christmas and watched it, then watched The Holiday afterwards. Guilty charged.
I can't believe i'm longing to go to math tutor class, probably because i finally realized i was starting to understand something and the test yesterday wasn't half bad. AND, Shire promised she'd bring food. Food FTW!!

Yoghurt cup #35

• Yes i've made an attempt to write the yogurt cup for 4 times at least i think and still don't remember the number.
• I need to buy more make-ups. Then again, i probably need to buy those other two million things in the world
• For example: contacts, aviator sunglasses, tote bag (Charles & Keith's on sale *wink wink*), black pumps, nude flats, summer clothes, body refreshments, a small shelf to hold magazines in my room since they're put up as a pile in the corner right now and my dad hates that.
• Just finished the second preparation exams. Don't think i did as well as last time though. I scored 21 out of 30 last time, it was about 5 more than i'd expected. I think i'll just score 19 this time. Still enough for college though, just not as high as i wanted.
• Bought new mascara. Probably the first time i bought myself make-ups haha. All of the make-up i have is from Cam or lipglosses as gifts for mom but she never touches anything further than cheek blush so they're naturally and eventually mine.
• I want a new pair of Converse. Red ones. Although today when i went to the store with Penny i saw a striped pair that looked pretty awesome.
• Kept thinking about that story about Danny. Ugh i need to come up with a new one!
• I'm a bad person. The more i think of it, the more obvious it seems.
• Been listening to old songs lately. Sooooo bored ...... I need my music inspirations back!
• It's always been the problem of shutting the mouth at the proper time. Which is all the time. Why can't people have the awareness of shutting the mouth up?
• I hate movies that ends up making people feeling heavier than expected. Dear directors, if your movies aren't good enough, don't try to close it with an open ending. Unless you're as fucking good as Christopher Nolan.
• SHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUP!!!!!!!!!
• This is not a happy yogurt cup.

A month away

Okay i've been spending a lot of time at home lately to prepare for the probably biggest exams of my life. So, i was thinking when i can finally be done with it, i'll use all of my savings this summer. I mean, what's the point in saving if you don't have a proper goal, right? You don't get to live beautifully in this face and this body for that long, might as well treasuring it.
Here are the things that i'm gonna buy.

• Bodyshop body butter. Another invasion from the tumblr. I saw a girl using Brazilian chestnut body butter the other day and said to myself 'oh damn it, i've got to use one!" haha that's typical me
• A pair of pumps that fit me and about 3 inches high. If not a pair of ballet flats would be nice. 
• Dye my hair chocolate brown or brunette. Probably chocolate brown since brunette is a bit light for my skin tone.
• Contacts. I'm tired of these glasses ._.
• A. New. Bag. Although mom specifically said that no more bags allowed in this household but ... i can't find a good reason to buy it, i just feel like i need one.
• Red lipstick.
• Pluck my eyebrows.
• A new phone if necessary. I was thinking Nokia X2-01.
• Have my ears pierced. Yes i'm 17 years old and still haven't had my ears pierced. I'm even behind my gay friend in class.
• New rings. And a good-luck charm as a gift from myself to myself to wish myself good luck before the test.
• Some new clothes. New pair of jeans, new blouse, new cardigan, something like that.
• Sunblock. Doesn't need to wait til after the exams. Might as well prepare myself before i get burned completely.

That's it for now. I'll fill in when i think of something interesting.

And, by the way, i've changed my status to not hating Taylor Swift anymore. Life is too short to hold hatred for anybody.

Yoghurt cup #34

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• One down, one to go.
• I got a 10 in English, which satisfied me very much as it's my first 10 in a long while.
• Writing this when i'm supposed to do Lit paper. Ugh.
• Bought Harry Potter 7 and Great Gatsby. Such a good feeling getting to read Harry Potter in its own language, now i only have to translate the spells back into English.
• Downloaded Fleetwood and Pink Floyd. Now i realize i'm not in the mood for rock. I listened thoroughly to Beach Boys this morning. Such soothing music, it can fix anything.
• ... not in the mood for a yoghurt cup now either.