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U2 - City Of Blinding Lights.

Jealousy.

Oh yes i'm fucking jealous!

Just when i thought my life was going to turn into a new page, something hits me on the head and screams in my ears "NO IT'S NOT YOU MORON!".

Holden Caulfield is such a genius.

Oh, and for my 30-year-old-self to understand why i'm a bit mental right now, i made it to the school team to go to the City's Elimination Exam for the National Team.

No big, seriously, except for the fact that i finished the test the earliest in the whole room and doodled for a while then turned my paper in and was ranked first, 233/280, 30 points higher than the second. I've only got one question, how the hell did that happen?

So now basically, no Technical, Social Studies, Geography, Biology (if i want) and all of the bullshit-ish subjects that i don't feel like studying.

Fuck yes.

Things to buy (why is it that i always need something?):

• Black pens, more black pens!
• Pencils, more pencils! (since i'm officially in the English study mood right now, Staedtler is enquired)
• Erasers, more erasers!
• Physics, less less Physics!
• More big notebooks to write. I'm such a notebook addict!
• Movies.
• TICKETS TO THE UK!

*promised to myself fun time's gonna be over at 8. Let's see if i can do that.*

I don't think someone with a character like me would be down to write diaries for such a long time like this. I remember when i had my first diary, it was a small brown-violet notebook with a yellow chicken printed on the cover. I wrote what happened in it, like a time table. I wrote about my breakdown when my 6th grade crush heartlessly denied my invitation to my birthday party. People usually say those who write diaries are likely to be mentally ill. I agree. I'm not that normal to begin with. But people also say those who write diaries are usually a bit dreamy. And look at me. Do i look dreamy to you?

My shameful little secret is that, although i curse and i act tough, i love beauty with all my heart. I'm a professional journal writer, and trust me, you've got to have skills to write diaries, i take photograph, i save up photographs, i have a lot of accessories, i watch and enjoy the beautiful scenes in movies, get emotional in front of colors, get goosebumps when i listen to a greatly sad song, i love the coffee shop's leather sofa, i love beautiful coffee shops, i love polka dots, stripes, Christian Dior, Louboutins,

I made this blog the first day of high school. September 9th, 2008. Anger drove me here, mostly. Blogs, diaries, notes, they're always the evidence of your youth, your growth in thoughts. I stupidly deleted my old one, wiping out all the junior high memories, ugliest and most hurtful pictures of my life. But not anymore. I solemnly swear i will never delete this blog. Thank you for storing myself in here.

After all, i might be a sad song person.

Playlist:

• MoZella- Amnesia
• A Fine Frenzy- Almost Lover
• Daniel Merriweather- Live By Night
• The Morning Benders- anything

My doodle. As i promised months ago.

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Light Years Away - MoZella.

Artists on the go

• Free Energy
• Foals
• Noah & The Whale
• Grizzly Bear
• more of the morning benders!!

Where The Wild Things Are - 4/5

The story is based on the children's book published in 1963. Plot:

"The book tells the story of Max, who one evening plays around his home making "mischief" in a wolf costume. As punishment, his mother sends him to bed without supper. In his room, a mysterious, wild forest and sea grows out of his imagination, and Max sails to the land of the Wild Things. The Wild Things are fearsome-looking monsters, but Max conquers them by "staring into all their yellow eyes without blinking once", and he is made "the king of all wild things", dancing with the monsters in a "wild rumpus". However, he soon finds himself lonely and homesick and he returns home to his bedroom where he finds his supper waiting for him still hot."

An interesting touch about this movie is that it confuses audience whether Max is on his real adventure or it's just his imagination. When not getting used to it, i used to be a bit annoyed about this feature, but now i find it quite interesting as not only the imagination of the characters but ours also soar. One compliment goes to Max Records for playing the role excellently. The movie passed the line for children's movie, making it an adult's movie in the shape of a kid's tale. I think the reason why they did that was because in the whole, the movie was placed in a not very bright and colorful display and not as easy to watch as Disney's creations. I was really shocked when Carol ripped the arm out of Douglas and nearly burst out crying when it came to the scene when Douglas placed a stick where his arm used to be.

Although having said that it was not a very colorful movie, there were some rather photogenic scenes that you would wish to capture. And those scenes made the movie special. I really love the friendship between Carol and Max, that they loved each other by heart despite being different in every way. After all, it's the love that connects people.

Don't watch it when you're sleepy, you might get bored of it, which is such a shame because this is a really worth watching movie.

What I've been doing lately.

I haven't had time to do any writing, haven't had time to complete, or remember the music article i left off a while ago. I was kind of dragged on to the studying and complications that come along. So, here are the things i have been doing in the past 2 weeks:

• Studying. For real. Well, makes sense. You can smell the intension from the teachers' facial expressions.
• Stopped listening to indie. Which wore me down a lot. Because good indie takes time to search, i don't have time for that. That's why i've been sticking with The Morning Benders and OneRepublic pretty much for the whole 2 weeks.
• Made a list of movies in need of watching. Last last week was Breakfast at Tiffany's, last week was Where The Wild Things Are, don't know what i'll watch this week. So far i've watched Pearl Harbor, which was absolutely epic. I haven't watched that movie for over 10 years, this time even better than last time.
• Considering between 10 Things I Hate About You and Gone With The Wind.
• Thinking when it comes to movies, i have SO much to talk about!
• Might as well recommend the two movies i've watched later with some cool albums i've left out from last time.
• Made friends with a brown dog today when i was buying a bottle of water. He only let me shake his head because i gave him the popcorn i couldn't finish, still it was good (:
• Got 85 in the first English test. Wasn't happy with it at all, and had real intension of tearing the paper into pieces in front of the teacher. Thank God i didn't do it and did the preposition exercise instead, adding 10 points into the test, 95. Ka-ching!
• I did a very very very very very bad thing today! OK here it goes. I was doing the 6th test in the Advanced English class today and got caught up with a really weird piece of reading. The piece looked like it was ripped off in the middle of a book or something, didn't make sense at all! Then i borrowed Penny's phone to google it. And guess what, i didn't find what i wanted. I found what i needed instead. THE WHOLE KEY TO THE EXACT SAME TEST I WAS DOING! I tapped Penny and we laughed silently for so long, then, ... What do you expect us to do? We finished the test in an hour and a half, three times faster than a normal one, and promised to each other this was, and will be the last time we'll ever do something like this.
• Do you know the consequences if we ever got caught? We would be kicked out of the Advanced English team, would be so humiliated in front of everyone we know.
• John Mayer deleted his twitter. I guess i was a tad bit mad about him i stopped listening to his music. Why did he even do that? He was one of my very first follow-ee, always smart and secretly funny, always inspirational. Goddamn it!
• Next Thursday i'll get a day off. I love staff meetings!

Excuses.

I highly recommend people to listen to this track because it is one of the most brilliant tracks i've ever listened to in my life. I play this song at least 5 times a day for the past month and haven't grown one bit tired of it.

I'm probably the only person who knew Torey Pudwill through The Morning Benders and not vice versa.

Playlist #2

Recent playlist:

• Heavily addicted to She Will Be Loved. Sadly because of Miley Cyrus.
• Tyrant- OneRepublic. Another one from The Last Song. Oh come on! The soundtrack is ridiculously good!
• Breakeven- The Script. Been like a moron wandering around the class singing "cause when a heart breaks no it don't breakeeeeeven".
• Made For You- OneRepublic. I seriously don't understand why Waking Up's sale is a tenth comparing to Dreaming Out Loud. Basically the two albums are pretty decent, Waking Up gets the fair share because Tedder's voice sounds even better. Americans can be really unfair sometimes.
• I'm Getting Over You- Click Five. THEY'RE GRADUATES FROM BERKLEE NO KIDDING! EVEN KYLE PATRICK!
• Trouble- NeverShoutNever! The beat in that song is so good probably the best part of the song.
• Damnit Anna, Excuses, Crosseyed, Patient Patient, Waiting For A War- The Morning Benders. Can't remember how many times i've listened to the albums.

Been listening to a lot of alternative lately. Almost closing the first horrifying week of school. A lot has happened actually.

Still haven't had time to show you some of my doodles (:

Tumblr challenge

• List 5 things that make you happy.
• List 5 things that make you sad.
• List 5 of your favourite foods.
• List 5 of your favourite drinks.
• List 10 things you want to say to 10 different people currently.
• List 10 pet hates.
• List 5 good things about your life.
• List 5 bad things…

might as well post a photo of my sketching/doodling/time-wasting here later.

first day at school can be briefly described with one noun:

mental fuckness.

Good things in life.

1. Good movies. Sound of Music, No Reservations, The Holiday, Devil Wears Prada, The Women, any movie that's good makes me feel good.

2. Good music. Right now The Morning Benders. And John Mayer, always. If music were a person, i would lean to his/her cheek to lay a light kiss. Avoid rock and hip-hop in any conditions.

3. Photos about Eiffel tower.

4. Being alone in my room wasting time on writing journal. Recently found that it's a very relaxing method.

5. Great laugh. I mean, who doesn't love it?

6. A good line in a book that makes me nod my head constantly, thumping my pillows in joy.

7. Coffee sofa. Lately the price of that coffee shop kind of prevented me from fulfilling my dream of being able to sit tightly in the chair to relax. Damn you money!

8. Dogs. I have scratched the cats out of category since the enjoyment didn't gain from curing allergies.

9. McFly. Yes i just said McFly.

10. Blogspot.

it's easier to list things i hate than things i like. cause i barely like anything.

before the big entry, here's the small and current one.

my family's having a party again

there's kids and pep talks and everything i hate combined

*smiles*